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June 13, 2024
I was feeling very nervous about going abroad on my own for the first time in my 50s, I must admit this was a big challenge for me but something I was determined to overcome, I went to the airport on my own, did the flight and I was feeling relaxed and really pleased with myself, the transfer from the airport to admiral hotel went well but then when I arrived Admiral Hotel it felt disappointing as it wasn't very welcoming but I was happy to let that ride over my head as I was there to make this a lovely holiday, I settled in my room which had a lovely view, I then went for food, when I walked into the dining area I made eye contact with one of the waiters thinking he would explain what the procueedure was, but no he looked away and broke eye contact, I felt all eyes was on me because I was on my own,(they probably wasn't but felt like they was) I went and sat at a table that had no cutlery on it, still no one come to guide me, I decided to go to the buffet to get some food, my anxiety at this point is start to going into overdrive, I was then looking for cutlery and none to be found! On the way back to my table I noticed a table with cutlery and thought “Oh right I need to sit here” When I sat down all eyes were on me, some people even laughing and looking at me, I was absolutely mortified, thinking “what have I done?” I then clicked on and realised I had sat in someone else place and used their cutlery. I felt so embarrassed that I stood up, left my food and rushed back to my room, I was totally upset with myself and thought how am I going to get through this for the next ten days if I can't even go for a meal without showing myself up. I found myself looking for the next flight home (a bit drastic I know) I did manage to calm my anxiety down and reflected on how well the journey had gone and not to let this spoil my holiday, I needed to prove to myself that “I CAN do this” so I did stick it out and ended up having a lovely peaceful and relaxing holiday, However, this did include going out for food rather than eating at the hotel, which I did enjoy and I have booked to go away again on my own in self-catering accommodation rather than a hotel, I was the only single solo traveller at the hotel at this time and I think if it had been more welcoming my first solo trip would have been perfect.